Frustrations

I've been reading pregnancy journals at a site where anyone can sign up for a little journal where they can record their thoughts and feelings during their pregnancies. I found the site last summer and enjoyed reading the journals of people with due dates close to mine--it was really exciting when I started seeing a lot of due dates AFTER mine. I started reading them again a few days ago and find myself getting so frustrated.

One girl's latest entry is focused on things like getting a Verizon bill in the mail when she didn't pay last month's and her (husband's? boyfriend's?) job is only for the summer, she's going to school, she doesn't know which bills to pay, and doesn't know how they're going to prepare for the baby.

Obviously these people are ready to be parents.

Its so frustrating that they'll probably have the stress-free pregnancy (health-wise anyway) and never consider that fact that something might go wrong.

Then another girl who says claims that "the worst thing about pregnancy has started…morning sickness!" Uh, no. Morning sickness isn't the worse thing about pregnancy. Morning sickness is a reassurance from your body that everything is proceeding like it should. I PRAY for morning sickness. The worse thing about a pregnancy is when you see blood and then find out that your HCG levels are dropping or that your little one no longer has a heartbeat.

I need to get over this feeling of entitlement that comes from us being able to afford to have a baby and knowing that we'll appreciate things so much more than other people since we've lost four.